You don’t know the person we’re going to discuss here, so I feel I can write freely. And if he were to read this, there’s a good chance he wouldn’t think this was about him. I’ve known him for a awhile. Actually I met him abroad and we’re email friends at the moment. However, the relationship is a tiring one because from one day to the next his mood changes, and you don’t know where you fit insofar as his thoughts go. It could be pleasant; it could be stressful. Probably we all know someone who tends to cause havoc merely by the way s/he internalizes. They stress over something that should have been forgiven and forgotten. There are many things he should have, could have, forgiven and forgotten by now. Yet these things return like waves upon the ocean. In the past, we’ve had conversations about this, but always with him you’re right back where you started. I’m ready to throw him overboard, or at least delete his emails.
Is it a big ego that clouds his capacity to see that there’s no time to sulk in this life? Or is it the opposite, his little feelings about himself keep him focused on himself. Geez, whatever it is, he’s got to find a way to stop the nonsense. His children are all adults. He has money; you could say he’s living the good life. So, why not enjoy it all? Life should/could be wonderful for him.
I’m not being unkind; he’s had many chances to change. I think it’s rather important to walk away from someone who refuses to forgive and forget. Anyway, I’ve a feeling that people have had to forgive and forget many times over in their relationship with Mr. Moody. Ah, when I think of all the exciting emails he could be writing because his life should/could be fantastic – if he’d just get out of his head.
I’ve made a pact with myself and it’s this: If I have to, I’ll forgive and forget over and over, and I’ll live life this way til the day I breathe my last breath. Life is a work of art in progress, and it shouldn’t become joyless and heavy. What’s the point in wasting our precious energy by being mumpish?